Recently, I have been living in a stage of covetous sin, rebellion toward God, and putting my desires first. I had decided that I was going to be obedient to the Lord in 2017 and move to a new city with a new job. But have I been obedient since?
No.
For about 4 months, I was hitting the job searching hard. I found that this pattern led to many covetous sins. I countinued to think - What will life be like in this next phase? What will my apartment look like? What if I make more money and I can buy a new car? Will God allow my future husband to enter at this time? On and on.
I noticed that I was countinuously unhappy in my daily life. My thoughts were controlling my life and led to me being unhappy in the current role God had me in.
God asks us to be content where he has us...
I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be contentwhatever the circumstances.​ Phillipians 4:11
I felt an intense overwhelming fear and a sense of failing. The devil knew what he was doing with my life.
I remember one more that I was driving to work and I prayed for things that I wanted. I would fall asleep at night pleading with God to give me the things I desired.
One morning I was confronted with the thought of, what about today?
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew 6:34
As time went on, I felt a conviction to be obedient to the season God has put me in.
After making this discovery I got a call for an interview. I had the interview and didn't get the position.
I knew.
I knew God had me where he wanted me.
Though it is hard to be in this season, there is weight lifted from my shoulders now that I have declared obedience to the Lord. I simply won't fight my fight anymore. I must fight His.
Satan has no hold on me.
